Writing and Schooling

I am snowed in currently, but this post isn't about all the beautiful white NOPE that's going on outside.  Well, maybe it sort of is, but the focus here is mostly regarding two of the four things floating around in my mind, as referenced in the title.  I'm certain I'll have my answer soon, hopefully by next month, on what I need to do in regard to these two very important things in my life.

Let's be honest - my writing has suffered tremendously the past couple of years, not that anyone has read my more recent works outside of my blog.  It is my attempt to keep my writing unpublished until it is ready.  I have published pieces in the past here and there, especially of poetry, before the finished work was ready, and I'm afraid my overall efforts have suffered for it.  My unfinished novels are a major focus of mine - that is, if I wouldn't open up a new or saved document and stare blankly at it for minutes on end.  Every idea that comes to mind is fizzled out by that little voice that tells me no one cares about your stupid little stanzas and stories, dummy.  I think that self-defeat is any writer's worst enemy.  If you feel that there is no audience or interest in your work, it makes it difficult to get anything started or finished.

I am scheduled to graduate college this year, earning my Bachelor's Degree this spring.  Work and school have also greatly affected my writing, as most writing I do involves essay questions and reports as of late.  I have applied to the Master's Degree program at my school, and there are a few things I need to finish up to complete the application.  I hope to be in the program by summer or fall.  I sometimes wonder if continuing my education and letting my writing to continue to suffer is wise.  We can never know what we will truly be successful at, can we?  Would I be more successful as a business leader or a writer?  I love both, but I feel that there are more opportunities in the business world.  But is that me?  I enjoy working with people as a team, and there is more solitude in leadership, knowing people are gossiping about you and saying how you think you're all that, guessing at how much money you make, questioning your decisions, etc.  Perhaps most wouldn't worry about what their employees think, but I would want them to be happy.  I have been an employee rather than an employer for most of my career, and I feel that if you do your best to keep your employees happy and take care of them, that they will take pride and ownership in their work, and take care of your customers in turn.  However, I am not certain that many companies agree with such sentiment.

I am sure the answer to the question will be clear upon the approval/disapproval of my application.  Do I concentrate on writing, business leadership, or eventually hope to manage both at some point in my life?  As I said, I'm not quite sure what the future holds just yet, but I hope to embrace whatever is to come, and pursue it at full force.

Until next time!